hi i am a 27 years old female I live in the philippines one year ago i started having this hug fight with y family and i statred cursing every body and i had especially my parents I thought of them bad things but mostly it was all in my thoughs.
after the issue continued i have cursed god him self and after that i aah bad dreams like am having *** with ppl and i started to have night mares and hearing voices telling me i am going to bur in hell.
the gen who possed me was telling the ppl around my thoughs and i was very arrogant that time due to some family issues so the gen is ordering every body now not to help and i am possed by more than one in my brain and left shoulder and at my back they are not hurting me be we are they are talking to every body around me and telling them stuff about me
I understand that I was a very bad selfish and errogant person I started praying and reading the wholy qor2an for a week i did nothing but praying and reaing the wholy qoran but that didnt help they are not letting any body help because i ahve cursed god and according to them no onw should e ever help in my life.
now I lost hope and I have very bad thoughs about relegion as i am cursing it all the time .
I was reading about this subjetc and i could not unsterstand what i am supposed to do if i am curssing god does it mean that i am not a believer?!!!
I am thinking negatively about the relegion in my thoughts only not to any body also most of my bad actions is really in thoughts
the devil inside me wont stop talking day or night i a, leaving my life normally but I am not close to god and i am still cursing him inside with out thinking !!! the though just come out of my head some times i really cant hear my self but other can read my thoughts and the laugh when i do
the demon wont let any body help me even the shiekh in the mosque i can pray but some times i curse god even when i am praying i beleive i am turining into the devil it slef i cant talk to any body with out cursing him or saying some thing bad about them or my self in a very dirty language all in my head nothing starnge in my actions
what can i do .. i need help to find god way again and to get clean from my bad thoughts and demons
Help me please
أنا فتاة في السابعة والعشرين أعيش في الفلبين بدأت أحمل شعور المعاداة لأهلي ؟؟؟
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